I dreamt I was running away from Australia. Me and this stranger, a girl, we were trying to ditch our degrees, our scholarship, this life.
It's night time. We were packing some bare necessities into our back packs. We've got a car in the porch, the engine's running. The house we were in, it's a bit like my real home but a bit different.
For some odd reason, I could see my cousin, Joey sleeping in my neighbour's yard. It was night but it's like there's a spotlight on him. He laid on the ground beneath a small tree. I remember feeling envious of him being so carefree that he could just sleep peacefully in a stranger's yard. (I think he's in this dream because in real life, back in Msia he's borrowing my Atos to go to work)
The girl was egging me on to hurry up. We were trying to leave quickly because people were coming home to our place. By 'people' I mean some 3rd year seniors. They would surely stop us.
But I started panicking. I worried that my sponsor would sue my parents because I broke the scholarship contract. So I couldn't get into the car.
Then I woke up. Feeling more depressed than I've felt in ages. Even in my dreams I'm too afraid to just ditch all this. I can't even dream of leaving. Pathetic.
alamak leana...... u r seriouslyyyy too stressed up! doing things u don like huh... try to like the things u r doing, imean, its hard to turn back rite?? cheeerrrss~~~~
ReplyDeleteAw brian terima kasih haha. Nawww ni emo sbb takut fail calcuations test (pass is 80%) makanya dpt mimpi yg depressing hurghhh. I'm alright with pharmacy actually (sudah menerima hakikat :p) but when I ponder it too much I get bitter, n when I'm stressed out with exams I just HATE it. Cuz y'know you'd get all these 'WHYYYYYYYYY must I do all this nonsense?'. But yeah, harus bersyukur dgn rezeki yg diberi :)
ReplyDeleteHow's UPM btw? Jgn lupa pegi tgk pusat ekuin. Say hello to Paint & Hobo for me :) (diorg ni kuda ya haha).